Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Fall




Tough hurting words had been spoken.
A golden bond had been broken.
The currency of our love....now token.
Wooden, leaden, it's ring spent.
Deflated, devalued, worthless, rent.

Perhaps it was an excess of desire,
Needing to burn brightly and then expire.
All grey and ashen our extinct fire.
That could, or would not last,
Became the past so rapidly.
Love once a comet, now gone...vapidly.

Saturday, March 21, 2015

An Aeolian' Energy



Superstring Theory is all musical metaphor.
Where linear space curves into mirrored symmetry.
The Universe is never closed. It's all open doors,
Where electrons spin and wait, some day to break free,
only to unite again in another's spin. Why?

What then? Perhaps a rebel photon will break out;
Be drawn into a not-so-black hole nearby;
Or just enter entropy and randomly move about.

Maybe just die without a whimper or a sigh.
No. Not die. Nothing dies. It would just change.
Or it might join all the neutrinos streaking by,
Where quarks are up, down and strange.

A mere atom is such a busy active place,
I am consoled when I gently touch my lovers face.

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Wednesday, March 18, 2015

It's All in a Book



I left my good book back at the country house
Where it was discovered by a nest-making mouse.
Who shredded its pages into a nest of a kind.

Now a book has many uses , but it's a surprise to find
In the confines of a book a family living.
But why not, books are so unconditionally giving.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Return to Sender...Life is Far too Serious

By Dan Morrill




My beloved knew that she was about to die.
She sought to surprise us, didn't want us to cry.
Original to the end, but she's now past tense.
She went out with a bang, in a burst of flatulence.

I shall never know her carminative source.
But she certainly went out with explosive force.
Dust to dust, ashes to ashes, she became all gas.
Didn't like being buried, so she vaporized her mass.

As the sun might burst forth after a drenching rain
Her last words were "No longer me, I'm all methane."
She then caught fire and made a bright blue flame
and so, rising higher and higher she went,
giving new meaning to the saying "Heaven-sent."

She's now returned from whence she'd come
To where she and her source could again be one.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

The Learned Man

by Dan Morrill



 
 
I studied art, explored all of science,
Took everything apart, then put it back together again.
The future I often anticipated,
Went back to when all was less complicated.

I parsed how all is created;
Metaphysical, psychological, historical,
Epistemological, empirical, rhetorical.

In consciousness, mind, time and change,
I wanted to know all life…its full range.

I became a rabid ratiocinating predator
Gobbling up facts, throwing open every door
To all we call life’s mysteries.

For I knew well that only knowledge frees,
And only knowing everything would please,
As I plotted, studied, absorbed, multi-dimensionally,
Sought to learn from all who could teach me
Everything for which they give a university degree..

As others looked upon me admiringly
I was seen as omniscient, erudite, free.

But let us see it as it is…relatively
For others missed what was the actual me
That I could see, with self-critical clarity…
That there was yet so much I had to learn;
And others were also unable to discern
That because of my pride and vanity,
I had now become my own worst enemy.
How we as a species have endured;
For our history shows we’re rather absurd.

Ah, but the radiance of eternity is everywhere;
For what matters most in life, you can’t prepare.
Our life is a gift…and in the universe so rare,
Only love matters. This alone, I now declare.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

The Soul Can Split the Sky

By Dan Morrill

 I believe in clarity. Not a rigid, unchanging clarity. Seeing things and understanding my emotions, is important to me. Once this is done, I’m free to enjoy my life. Right now, I’m angry, confused, hurt and uncertain. But mostly, I just feel empty. I blame myself. I’ve never been any good at blaming others, a failure of which I’m not ashamed. Another relationship had turned sour. This time I had really cared, “crossed over” as I liked to call it. There is no reason to it, but then I’m very aware that emotions are not rational, that loving another takes a leap of faith, a trust in the unknown.
Everyone should have a friend like Jenny…open and trusting. I go to her when I can’t trust myself and need direction. She tells me what I don’t want to hear but should, and gets me to do what I need to do but won’t. That’s why I now stand at the ranger station at the entrance to the Boundary Waters Canoe Area Wilderness, applying for a seven day back country permit.

I fill in the form and hand it to the ranger who reads it and eyes me with a touch of intrigue and amused concern. “Now Dan, you’re sure you know what you’re doing?” he asks. We don’t get many in here traveling alone this time of year.  Fact is we don’t get many paddling at all this time of year. You got plenty of food and warm clothes?” I assured him that I was well prepared and that I had a cell phone I could take with me to call if I got into trouble. I knew there was no way I was taking that phone with me. One learns to say what authorities want to hear. A habit that I need to get away from.

And so I parked my car in the allowed space, checked my gear carefully again and took off into the wilderness that lay in front of me. The pack was heavy but I was so hungry to get away, that I handled the difficulty of portaging across rough terrain with relative ease. Determined, I even relished the burden. I was alive and the pain and physical strain were far better than that awful empty “nothing” feeling of losing love. I was shedding a world of news, TV, the internet and mail where everything seemed to be happening all the time. Constant stimulation and activity ever available were being left behind. Heavy with pack, I felt oddly lighter. Only woods and water lay ahead. An abstract geometry of geographical simplicity would be my home for a week. I was not being exiled. This was not being forced upon me. In a deeply instinctive way, it felt right. I was here by choice and it empowered me. I had had to overcome myself. I love you Alice Walker and your “honor the difficult.”
Out here, all was empty, harmonizing with my emotional evisceration. “Go into it,” Krishnamurti said. It’s the only way to learn to own your emotions. Entering this wilderness, I thought, I will do this thing, it’s only for a week, and it’s much more real than therapy. The lush landscape seemed forbidding, but my stay would be short. I must give wisdom a chance. That old native saying, “If you would find wisdom, you must go out into the wilderness, far from men.” Some say God is to be found out here. I began to believe that.

Absence can be a blessing. No noise, no congestion, no impingement here. All urgency was gone and the redoubtable wild was becoming comfortable. It was wrapping around me like a blanket. I felt strangely accepted almost appointed, as if I peacefully reigned over the woods and water, was guardian of the distant shore. Is this why, I wondered, the Australian aborigines say “We live to feel,” and their feelings are like a lived prayer? I had thought about this when I first read it. I was feeling lighter, fuller, freer, liberated. Could I stand liberation for an entire week out here all alone? I laughed. My friends would be driven quite mad here by weeks end.
For seven days, I fell into a near routine, distilling life down to bare essentials, shelter, food, water, toilet, freedom, just being alive and contemplating the miracle of it.  Always rising at dawn to catch the shimmering and subtle shift of light on forests and still water. It felt intimate and I got to know the sun again. There were moments of boredom, of hiking to nowhere   wondering why when I returned. Snow came and dusted the pines and transformed the landscape, so ethereal, so beautiful and unseen by others that tears came to my eyes. I had wild dreams at night which I would record in the morning as I drank coffee. I gave each day a totem word, honoring Thoreau’s “Simplify, simplify, simplify!”

Day One: OWL…For the soft sound of the large bird that flew so close to me the first night as I gazed into the great night sky, so palpably near. Perhaps Minerva Owl, bird of wisdom, brushing close.
Day Two: FOREST…The lone and lush forest that reaches far away and seemed to move as the light changed.

Day Three:  WATER…I could feel my mind begin to flow into everything and rise and become light with the stars, the sun, the moon, the spirit of the lakes.
Day Four: DREAM… I began to feel surreal, outside of my body, made of the stuff of dreams. My night dreams becoming more imaginative and complicated than I had ever thought possible. I felt as if I were a dream within a dream that was, perhaps, being dreamed. All was somehow gossamer, translucent.

Day Five: GRATITUDE…For just being alive and able to be here. To begin to see my own absurdity.
Day Six: SKY...So all encompassing, so real, so like a changing artist’s canvas going from translucent blue to black and catching all the cloudiness and color most brilliantly and ephemerally expressed at dawn and dusk. The sky so intimate and eternal. As Millay had written, “The soul can split the sky in two and let the face of God shine through.”

Day Seven: HOWL…For my last day…the sentinel sound. Was it coyote, wolf or some mythical beast? I couldn’t know. It was a grand ululation, an all vowel sound, a lamentation. AEEIIOOOUUUUUUUuuu…that marked so perfectly, perfectly as perceived, my final night as if some spirit animal were asking me to stay. Was sorry to have me leave. The voice of the mystery of it all…with feeling.

Today when I am melancholy and feel like howling, I think of that singular cry coming out of the deep silence of the night, I smile and feel relief…less alone.
 
                                                                        




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Thursday, March 12, 2015

Kawishiwi Falls




At dawn we leave. The falls do call to our delight.
We yearn for peace where forests abound.
The road is warm with suns first light.
 
Our dog knows a quest will soon come round.
Pine and birch reflect mornings glowing
And sounds of nature do us surround.
 
We laughing run through boughs soft blowing.
We seek the falls, their rushing sound
brings joy to all, their furious flowing.
 
We make love beside those falls, our pulses faster,
Our dog looks on, his countenance sweet.
The mist washes over our naked rapture,
Our soaring journey too soon complete.
 
We lay there long, our bodies sated,
The dappled shade our only cover.
Our dog now calm, his masters mated.
 
Time passes and we must leave, our spirits gay.
We will return to fill our souls with loving feelings.
Our minds now calm, we approach our day.


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Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Sundown...Flames of Your Touch


                         
 
                         Chapter Twenty-Eight...An excerpt
The coming evening was going to remain unseasonably warm, so there was no need to go inside. John had  set a large stack of firewood in the fire ring near the water and now he added some tinder and lit the stack. It roared to life and he knew it would last for hours without replenishment. As Maddy sat watching, he went to the Aerie and returned with loaded arms. Champagne, a blanket and pillows.
No words had been spoken...None were necessary.
The sun had set and the pale blue of twilight in the western sky was still clinging to the horizon.

Starr opened the champagne and poured two flutes to the top. They toasted their new life together to which both had committed by silent, tacit agreement. Then they lay in each others arms watching the stars appear in the darkening moonless sky until the Milky Way seemed to offer one continuous smear of brilliant stars across the entire sky.

Finally, Maddy stood and began to remove her clothes. Starr held his breath. He had no choice, he simply couldn't breath as he watched her. She stood beside the fire which bathed the right  side of her body in golden hues, the left side remaining in total darkness.
The effect was electric. Her body to Starr’s eyes was perfect in every way. Her breasts firm, her waist narrow and gently flaring to  rounded  hips.She moved the few feet to him and  leaned up to kiss his lips. He wrapped his arms around her, pulled her close and began to caress her silky back. But she stepped away smiling up at him and began to unbutton his shirt. 
At the last button, she stopped to run her hands over  the muscles of his chest pausing as she came to scars, saying nothing, then  moving down to his belt.
She impatiently tugged the buckle. Now it was his turn to step back. “We’ve plenty of time.” he said. He pulled his shirt from his jeans, then unbuckled his belt . She watched as his clothes dropped to the ground and he stepped away from them.

She walked into the circle of his arms and pressed herself against him, sighing without speaking.............................

There was no room in her world for conscious thought. Her entire existence was encompassed in this moment, this sublime, shared experience. She wanted nothing more than to become a single being with this man. this loving, giving, unselfish man....................................

The morning light was streaming through the bedroom window when John stirred and he found himself alone. He could hear Maddy moving about the kitchen, softly singing. He walked from the bedroom and saw her with just a towel wrapped around her waist, busy at the counter. Walking quietly up behind her, he wrapped his arms around her waist, kissing her on the side of her throat without a word. She stopped what she had been doing, moving her head back against his chest. Then, also without a word, she turned in his arms, wrapping hers around his neck and pressing her face and breasts into his chest.

He felt her lower one hand to loosen the towel, letting it fall to the floor.

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Sunday, March 8, 2015

Sundown at Dawn...A Beautiful Story

"I could not stop reading"
A wonderful review received from a world class individual. Major General (Ret) Raul Cun'ha was head of the Portuguese Special Forces, UN Military Chief in Sarajevo, Military Attache' to UN Secretary General Kofi Annan and Nato Commander in Afghanistan.

"A beautiful story! Finished reading! Actually, once I began, I could not stop until the end. It was that captivating. My sincere congratulations on your writing. It is both interesting and precise, and in some particulars, beautifully described. I volunteer now to translate into Portuguese..."

                                                                                 


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The woman second to enter, had taken Starr’s breath away. But more than that, she looked familiar. He could not put a name to the face, but at that moment a name was the farthest thing from his mind. She had shoulder-length straight blonde  hair and pale green unassuming eyes. She was wearing just a hint of makeup around her eyes and was smiling at something that the older woman had said. That smile seemed to light up her face, displaying no affectations at all. She simply was as she appeared without apologies. She moved with the grace of an athlete. She seemed to glide with little effort, and with a long and elegant neck, she reminded him of a young mare wanting to kick up its heels. She was tall with a slim, graceful figure and gently-rounded hips. The impression she imparted was stunning. She wore form-fitting black slacks and a thin white silk turtleneck.  If Starr had been able to tear his eyes from her and look around the room, he would have noticed that many conversations had ceased. He was not the only admirer of this gorgeous creature.

As the young woman turned to scan the crowd, her eyes settled on Starr and stopped. He returned her gaze and could not look away. Without betraying any emotion, color started to rise from under her silk shell, slowly making its way upwards toward her face.

 

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Friday, March 6, 2015

The Gunner

Automatic fire splashed onto the road like the first heavy drops of a spring  rain as Kenny and Sundown dove for the ditch beside their Jeep. The heavy fire coming from the nearby woods stopped as quickly as it had begun. They were in the Bavarian countryside, once again scrounging for parts. The country appeared quiet and peaceful once again. The rolling hills were green and lush and dotted with darker forested patches, a seductively pastoral scene.

 The memories of that ambush came flooding back as he listened to the caller remind him of the incident for the first time in twenty five years.

 It was April 19, 1945 and his name was John Oberstar. He was a Tech 5 attached to HQ Co., Combat Command B (CCB), 11th Armored Division. He and his unit were doing their best to keep up with Patton as he roared across Germany. He was called Sundown by his buddies and was a scrounger and a mechanic charged with keeping the rolling stock running. From Jeeps (called Peeps in those days) to tanks and everything in between. So he became a scrounger by necessity. He often said that they were very happy to take two damaged trucks and finish with one running, the other in pieces.

 His scrounging for parts to keep the 11th Armored running, took him and his buddies far and wide. That's how he came to be in Zella-Mehlis at the Walther factory, when his unit had just captured Oberhof, a few miles away.                

The Phone Call
One day in 1970, twenty five years after the wars end, John received a  call. The caller identified himself and asked if his name rang a bell. John said that it did not and he would need a little more information.
So the story was retold by the caller. Turns out he was with 41st cavalry, attached to the 11th Armored Division which was laid up near Grafenwohr, just South of Bayreuth, in April, 1945. John was there as well and was mounting one of his scrounging forays to look for parts. He was in need of a back seat gunner to man the .30 cal. Browning mounted behind the seats in his Peep, named "Towhead". This young GI volunteered, I suppose to see more of the country in this area of Thuringia/Bavaria. So off they went. John, his driver and the new back seat gunner. John said that the back seat gunner would often sit up on the back rest of the back seat, putting him up higher than the windshield and giving him a better field of fire. Turns out that was not a good choice on that day.
 

Trouble
As the 11th moved further Southeast from Thuringia, into Bavaria, the larger the pockets of retreating Wehrmacht became. When encountered, at this point in the war, they were not eager to fight any longer. They just wanted to go home as did the GI's. The problem was, the hills were also sprinkled with pockets of SS, who had no intention of surrendering at this point. Several concentration camps had been liberated by this time, plus the roads leading South in the Cham area were littered with the bodies of camp prisoners who had died during forced marches. The SS camp guards knew that they would not be well treated if they surrendered. And so, they hid and often popped up in rear areas ambushing support units at will.

Not a good situation for a lightly armed Jeep, alone, out looking for parts or recoverable vehicles.

As they were passing through a narrow valley, with heavy forests on both sides, they suddenly began to receive automatic fire. The windshield exploded, but both front seat passengers were not hit. The back seat gunner, sitting up high, was another matter, he was knocked right out the back of the Jeep. The driver slammed on the brakes and both he and Sundown bailed out, taking cover in the ditch.

The fire stopped as quickly as it had started, but they both remained where they were for some time, expecting to be picked off if they moved. They assumed that the gunner had taken cover on the opposite side of the road, since he was not with them.

As it began to get dark, they realized that any remaining nearby SS, would be likely to over-run them if they stayed where they were. The Jeep still appeared to be in running condition, sitting and waiting in the middle of the road. No sign of the gunner. Not a sound anywhere, but the breeze through the trees.

It was time to move

Pinned Down
Lying in the ditch, a quick inventory showed that they had little to fight with. Kenny had his Colt Mod 1911 .45 and John had his Navy 6" Luger which he had carried in a cut down Mod. 1911 holster. Their carbines were still in the Jeep Without any other options, they both crawled up onto the road and took shelter behind Towhead. Still no gunner. The opposite side ditch was empty and the light was fading.

Searching the area, while staying under cover took some time, but finally they found him.

He was lying in the middle of the road, 40 feet behind the jeep. They crawled over to him without drawing more fire. Apparently and to their relief, the enemy was gone. They likely had withdrawn shortly after the ambush.

 From the blood trail, they could see that he had been shot from the backseat and had then attempted to crawl back to the rear of the Jeep for cover. He had not gotten far and was now unconscious and still bleeding.

But that was not the worst of his problems. It appeared that the rounds that he had taken, had sliced him open across the stomach as cleanly as if done with a surgeon's scalpel. A closer look at the blood trail from where he had fallen, to where he now lay in the waning light, revealed not blood as it first appeared, but a trail of intestines. As he crawled, he had pulled them out in a trail behind him. Their problems were now multiplied.

 
Clockwise or Counterclockwise
A hushed conversation now ensued. What do we do? Neither had any medical knowledge. Kenny wanted to leave immediately as he eyed the woods and the quickly increasing gloom around them. They might be attacked again at any moment. This man is dead or nearly so. He cannot last more than a few minutes. We need to leave.....Now.
.
John was older than the others in his unit. He was nearly 24 and so, was often referred to as "the old man". It was a term of respect and they usually deferred to him. He was a hunter and an outdoorsman. He had dressed out many deer (more about that later), and he had a pretty good idea of what they were facing. He knew the copper smell of blood and the smell of perforated intestines. He had no idea of what other internal organs might have been damaged, but he knew that the young gunner was suffering from shock and blood loss, which could not go on much longer. But he was still breathing and so still alive. In John's opinion, as long as he was still breathing, he had a chance. He had only known this young gunner for an hour, but he refused to leave him where he lay.

Kenny finally agreed...They sat there in the middle of the road, trying to decide what to do next. John administered a shot of morphine and sent Kenny to the jeep to fetch a canteen. Next a debate arose as to how to replace his intestines. Should they be put back into place in a clockwise or a counter clockwise direction?  No idea....They had water to cleanse the intestines of dirt and contaminants and they had their personal field dressings which they each carried to cover the wound and perhaps stem the flow of blood and that was it. Not much to work with. As they prepared to attempt to put the gunner back together, John remembered one more piece of ever present equipment which might help. He once again sent Kenny back to Towhead to retrieve a bottle of Brandy. Now they had disinfectant.

Once their task began, the clockwise/counterclockwise debate was quickly forgotten. Wash the intestines as they were piled back into their place... keep an eye out for the enemy... look for perforations...they found several and doused them in brandy. It didn't take long and they had done all that they could at that time and place. Everything was back where it belonged, their field dressings were tied around the large wound. (There were others).

Now it really was time to move.

 The military jeeps of that era, had a rear seat bottom which flipped up and locked in a vertical position under the backrest. This provided a flat back floor to carry cargo. The passenger's front seat, similarly, flipped forward and stayed there, allowing access to the rear.
The gunner was dragged/carried to Towhead and laid flat diagonally across the rear cargo area, with his feet protruding out of the jeep's right side. John kneeled in back keeping pressure on the dressing
 
                                     
                                                             Towhead                        

The MASH
Kenny drove...slowly at first with blackout lights as dictated by combat zone rules. These are nothing more than slots which allowed a very small amount of light to be cast on the road ahead. Once they had cleared the ambush zone they discussed speeding up...not something that would be possible with the blackout lights. They knew the closest help was a MASH unit nearly five miles from their position. The MASH units moved forward along with supply, ordnance, maintenance, fuel etc. in order to stay in contact as best they could with Patton's Armored and Infantry, which waited for no one.

The tip of the spear, medically speaking, were the front line medics. I believe that there is a special place reserved in Heaven for men who go into the thick of combat, unarmed with their only intention being to save others. Casualties were quickly brought to aid stations, picked up by ambulances and rushed further to the rear where surgeons waited.



  Titled "Ambulances waiting for casualties. Heavy firefight going on nearby. Oberhof."

Their progress was slow, visibility was nil and the gunner was fading fast. They decided to set caution aside to give him every chance they could. They turned on the headlights and pushed Towhead to her limits. Now they were in danger of drawing fire from both sides, but there was nothing to be done about that and they pushed on. It seemed to take forever, but was more like 15 minutes and they were at the MASH unit. Horn blaring and sliding to a stop, orderlies with a stretcher seemed to appear as if by magic. The gunner was off loaded and whisked away without questions.

John and Kenny wearily returned to their unit and turned in...They had done their best. But did he make it? John went back the next day to see how his gunner was doing, only to find him gone. Casualties were coming in and no one could give him any information. He only knew his last name and that he was with the 41st Cav.

The War Goes On
Time went by, they moved on...life went on for some, and the war went on for all. But John never forgot the gunner and his unknown fate. Towhead's windshield was repaired and she was brought back to her former glory.

During the course of the war, John took lives, saved lives and nearly had his own life taken away in return. He was at Bastogne and at the end.....the liberation of Mauthausen.

But to the end of the war, the unknown fate of "the gunner" as he became known to them all stayed with him.

His stories went in many directions....the Schweinfurt Ball Bearing Factory, the Bank Job, the Museum, many more. All stories for another time.

But that’s not the end of this story.

Sundays with Sundown
It was 1970, and I had been living in Chicago for years, but when home in Northern Minnesota, I would always drive my mother to visit the Oberstar’s.

Often, when John was working on a Sunday, I would while away a part of the day, cleaning and oiling his gun collection, which he appreciated and going through the War Albums which contained more than five hundred photos taken during that drive across Europe.

On this day, he was there and he was exuberant. He called out to me when we arrived, with the proclamation. "My Gunner called!!" From the look on my face, I'm sure he quickly realized that I had no idea what he was talking about. This was one story which he had not shared with me as a young boy. But now I was twenty-six and so we retired to his study for the telling. After relating it all to me, just as I have related here to you, he went on to tell of the call received just that day.

The Gunner, (whose name I no longer recall), was alive and well. He had been shipped out of the MASH unit as soon as the Army surgeon had patched him up. He needed more care than they could give him and it was touch and go for him for a long time. After regaining consciousness, he had recalled being told how lucky he was to be in the living world. That whoever had given him his first care and administered antiseptic, easily identified by odor, had staved off sepsis, the normal killer in his situation. He filled John in on his slow but steady recovery, back in the States. His war was over. John filled in the parts which he had been missing all these years, the immediate minutes following The Ambush. (Leaving out the debate as to whether he was better left where he lay.)
Now they were both in possession of the missing pieces....Closure for both of them. John was very happy to learn that The Gunner had not only survived, but had gone on to lead a good and productive life. He had married, been well employed, had several children and was awaiting the arrival of his first grandchild.

The reason for his call soon became apparent. As with many returning Vets, in their middle years, war injuries began to give them trouble and that was the case with The Gunner. The VA, as is also often the case, had lost his wartime medical records and could not document his injuries. They did not dispute that they had happened or even that they had been the result of his military service. But without records to confirm that, there was nothing they could do to go forward with a medical disability for him. The best that they could offer was the opinion that, lacking paperwork, a disability claim might be possible with first hand eyewitness accounts of the incident which resulted in his injuries. And so, he needed John's help once again. This was a request with which John was happy and eager to comply. He agreed to provide a written account of everything that had happened that day, have it sworn and notarized and sent off immediately. He also provided the name and address of the Driver, so that he could make the same call to him. He and Kenny and the rest of his unit had stayed in close contact and he assured The Gunner that Kenny would be happy to comply as well. When I arrived that day, he was already in the midst of his written recollection.

A happy day and the closure that had been on hold for years.

 
THE LAST CHAPTER
Sundown died on September 19, 1974. He was only 57. I had been living in Chicago for ten years and we had had few chances to visit in the last few years. I was in Los Angeles in a business meeting when I got the call. I contacted the airlines and by late that evening, I was in Minnesota.

I was honored to be asked to be a pallbearer along with one of my older brothers and other nephews. One was James Oberstar, who was running for office at the time and went on to serve as a Congressman for more than 30 years. Chairman of the House Transportation Committee’

I was amazed, but I should not have been surprised. A town of 5,000 closed down nearly completely to attend the funeral. He would have smiled at that. He did not believe in stopping to smell the roses. He thought of life as a swiftly flowing river. We could stand safely on the bank and watch it flow by, or we could leap in with both feet, feel the current and paddle for all we are worth. I can't help but think that his philosophy was greatly influenced by his wartime experiences.

Many of us have talked to GI's who could not wait for the war to end, so that they might get home to loved ones and a quieter more peaceful life, only to acknowledge that they had never felt more alive than during those years when they did not know if they would survive.

I am posting his words in his own hand, written on the back of a photo. He said there were many stories to tell later on. I think he would be pleased to know that now, seventy years later, his prophetic words were coming true.
 
                                                                               

Books by the Author

Sundown at Dawn:
http://www.amazon.com/Sundown-at-Dawn-ebook/dp/B00CNV3CNG/ref=pd_rhf_ee_p_img_1_EDD6

SS Walther PP/PPK Identification & Documents:
http://www.ebay.com/itm/131369492159?_trksid=p2060778.m1438.l2649&ssPageName=STRK%3AMEBIDX%3AIT

 

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Erich Couldn't Catch a Break

Things just didn't seem to go Erich Riedel's way. As a young Kriminalassistent...that is, assistant detective in the RSHA...the Reich Security Main Office, Erich worked in plain clothes in Department IV A2. Defense and countermeasures against sabotage, counterintelligence and political forgery. His job took him to occupied territory, specifically Paris and the surrounding environs. This was where he was needed. This was where the action was for a young man, eager to do his job.
On August 3, 1943, he had begun this new job and had been issued Walther PPK #978 687. It came boxed, complete with ammunition, a spare magazine, a black holster issued with nearly all SS issued PPKs, but also with a second strapped holster, the shoulder holster. It was the pride and joy of the new assistant detective, a badge of honor and he carried it in the brown shoulder holster, cleaned, oiled and loaded.
The occupied territories were daily, becoming a more dangerous place for a young German detective. Murmurings of the coming allied invasions were becoming louder as time wore on. Large shipments of munitions were being intercepted on a regular basis, dropped from dark cargo planes passing quietly. Through capture and torture, call signs and signals were discovered and many of those drops fell into German hands, thanks to Erich's effort along with others in his department. Tens of thousands of captured allied arms were being shipped East for re-issue to the Wehrmacht in an effort to make up the manufacturing shortfall.
Everything was becoming to be in short supply. But Erich did his job until a night in December when he was involved in a shootout with saboteurs. He escaped with his life, but lost his PPK #978 687 in the night battle.
On December 16, 1944, he reported it's loss and it was written off. His weapon index card was pulled and #978 687 was lined out and it's fate was noted in handwritten notation "abgesetzt" lost and written off.
But Erich still had a job to do, so on that same index card, a new PPK #230 355 was entered and issued to Erich much to his chagrin.
How do we know this? The index card still exists. (See below) But stay tuned, that's not the end of the story.



In August of 1944, Patton's Third Army had roared across France. Cities had fallen like dominos. Paris drawing ever closer. Hitler ordered the destruction of Paris..."Brennt Paris?" he asked of Field Marshall Walter Model. But by then, Erich Riedel was gone, heading East and back to Berlin.
He had been issued his new PPK and in December, he was ordered West to Belgium. A new major attack was going to take place and Riedel would follow along behind the advancing troops. The ultimate goal was to drive to Antwerp and split the allied forces. The OKW believed this would be the turning point in the war.

The battle which was long and brutal, was the last major German offensive of the war. It became known as the Battle of the Bulge. In fact it was a series of linked sharp engagements resulting in high casualties on both sides. The Battle for Lignieuville, The Battle for Stavelot, The Burning of the Gasoline Dump at the Stavelot-Francorchamps Road, The Battle for Trois Ponts, The Bridge at Habiemont, The battle for Malmedy.

It was somewhere during this swirling, confusing series of battles that Detective Erich Riedel and PPK #230 355 K parted ways. What became of Erich beyond this point is not known. If he survived the cauldron, surrendered his weapon and was taken prisoner, he may very well have survived. As a detective in the SS/RSHA, he would have stayed a prisoner for some time after the cessation of hostilities on May 8, 1945. But eventually with the OSS having much bigger fish to fry, he would have been released and allowed to go home.

Inspector Riedel had had possession of # 230 355 K for less than a week. It had seen little use and still remained pristine. From this point forward, the gun would take a vastly different path from that followed by the detective. The GI who had accepted surrender of the weapon unloaded the magazine and chamber and slipped into the pocket of his fatigue jacket. He promptly forgot about it as it became buried under other spoils of war.

The GI was a member of Patton's 11th Armored division which continued it's rampage across Europe, entering Germany briefly, then turned south, following along the Czech border, accepting the nearly daily surrender of large but badly demoralized German units. They liberated Mauthausen concentration camp on the Danube, met Soviet units near there for the first time and finished their war right there.

It wasn't until the GI had been separated and returned home to the USA, that he emptied the pockets of his jacket which had lain folded at the bottom of his duffel. There he came across #230 355 K. He did what so many Gi's eager to get on with civilian life, marry, raise a family and live in peace had done. He slipped it into one of those ubiquitous olive drab GI socks. Then he buried it at the bottom of his sock drawer and once again forgot about it. There it lay for decades, removed and oiled on rare occasions and put back in it's place.

The former GI raised his family and lived a happy and productive life. He died in 1985 at which time, his son came across the PPK. He had learned to hunt as a boy at his father's side and knew a quality firearm when he saw one. He kept it as a keepsake and often wondered what the story behind it had been. As he read and learned, he often wondered about markings on the gun that he had not seen on others. He would often take it to gun shows and ask dealers who seemed to know about PPKs what the significance of the serial numbered magazine might have been. He would always receive a shrug of shoulders in reply. No one knew.

With the advent of the internet, collectors began to share information and the pool of knowledge continued to grow. By 2010, enough information was in the hands of collectors, to identify some PPKs as having been issued by the SS. One collector, building on information contained in a small red booklet, published in Germany by Joachim Gortz and Dieter H. Marshall, began to search through the american military archives. Millions of top secret WWII documents had been stored there since the war. Eventually he came across thousands of documents pertaining to SS issue of PPKs. Index cards documenting individual issue, shipment documents, letters concerning receipt, etc. He found so much information that he decided all collectors needed to have it available to them. And so he wrote a book containing everything that he had found, including a description of every variation that had been identified and confirmed as well as his entire database of serial numbers.

One day, the owner of #230 355 K came across the book and purchased a copy. Low and behold...he searched through the book and came across an index card for the issue of his gun! The gun and the index card were now back together after seven decades. The son of the GI now knew for the first time that he owned the PPK first issued to Assistant Detective Erich Riedel. He even had Riedel's signature which he had been required to provide upon receipt of #230 355 K. In addition, he had Detective Riedel's history there in front of him including the loss of his first PPK.

He couldn't catch a break, but in the end it had all come full circle. A legacy that young Assistant Detective Erich Riedel could never have imagined.

 
The information contained in this story is based on data from my book: SS Walther PP/PPK Identification & Documents. Please click on the title pinned to the top of this page for more information on the book.
 
The book is available from me at:
Steve Stepan
Box 261
Ely, Mn. 55731
$35.00 + $4.00 P&S
 
Also available on Ebay: